Sometimes I take 3 or 4 baths a day.... and sometimes I refill the bathtub, the same number of times. I have always said that in poker I have no tell, that isn't the case in the real world. If you ever see me get in the bath before 2pm, its a tell, I am stressed or i am just going to my place. Either way don't invade.... and no, my space wasn't invaded.
I wonder why I do that, why I assume u will think something different.
Is it because I am jaded?
Yes or No?
I have decided that I hate the word jaded, its overrated and misunderstood. It's not something I want to be or become. Throughout my life, I have only let a few people close to me. I am loyal to a fault and I expect it from others. I assume the closest people to me wont hurt me, but they do. Not because of there opinions, but for their lack of support. In the same thought I wonder if its that, or just my unrealistic expectations.
Do we really want from people, what we give?
Or is what we give, an excuse not to be judged later?
I don't know the answer, none of us do. So we take life with a grain of salt and we don't ask why. I am becoming wiser. Watching my mind grow up is amazing and scary, all at the same time. The scary part is that we get older, we grow apart, we come to different conclusions and we make new chapters. My new chapter is starting now. I hope its so great that I never want to stop reading it. Thats the amazing part.
Side Note: No, this isn't about a guy. Just in case u assumed it was, lol.
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